...As A Bass Drummer.

The Marching Band Season has sadly ended for the 2011 Terra Nova Marching Band... D;
All these band kids aren't going to know what to do with their lives after school...

buut...I'm gonna miss my Baby Bass Drum...
&Augs. :((
&I know the calace from the mallet is going to go away too. :( ohwell.
I. <3. My. Drumline. <3 <3 <3 <3

buuut...WE HAD AN AWESOME SEASON ANWYWAYS. :)  it really was a good year. I'm sooo glad Augies happy, and Bobs is proud too. I'm not too sure about what Rico thinks, but I am  content VERY HAPPY with the bassline this year. Like for realz. I am just...you have no idea. :D These kids are just the coolest.

You have no idea. Really.

It's not going to be the same next year without the seniors. oh hey! You can watch their last Terra Nova football game.
Here it is. :)
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHt2sbKs8hk  (its a little loud, cuz nobody really watches it, except for the DIE HARD BAND LOVERS. ;D) Hope you like it! I know I do. :3

Our Drum Captin is the one who kneels down and has some solo with another senior-Andrew-who is the that layed down while playing his trumpet. He's pretty cool. :)



^^ This is Augie. And those are my glasses.
I feel so honored. ;D
It hasn't REEEALLY hit my until recently, that these kids arent going to be there next year, and....ohgoodness. I donevenknoooww....






And there theres Seth...
ohmygaassh....this isnt even funny.
I EVEN HAD A FREAKIN' DREAM ABOUT HIM! D:<
...and he was so cute in it...
and I cant even tell him how...I...I just cant even alkvb;oijebwnlijodahn ;onaidnviabjkdjnkjabvhj kjniabfiubaeowdnnjabaijd vnloskocvajnvkj aoewnfijawbnklmvnlknaogjewn lkgvnloanevka kjnavlkjnboairj jfbdalkkjhuyf ydc jlkjaidsjv anao;odcvjiaflakjnvibiubw ocin ;woidnlcvaj.......


...handle...

...kaybye.

okaay, I guess I'll be done for now. If I remeber anything I wanted to tell you...I'll...oh, I donnoo...


Its not like anyone actually reads this...

Okeydokey pokey. For Realz this time.
See ya 'round. :)
<3, Coco.

...As A Depressed, Boy Troubled Girl...

I guess I wish I could say that everything is just HUNKY FREAKIN' DORY. but I'm pretty sure its not.


I have no idea whats going on in my brain which tells me all those stupid bad thoughts.

Like, for example, I havent been having the best end to my week, and so I cried Thursday morning, Friday morning-bawled my eyes out for just about an hour-and Saturday morning. And its ALL THANKS TO MY STUPID WAY OF THINKING. ughhh. :P

I think, band has to do with it. I push my self to do the best I can-iff not, I try even harder-and I think its taking a toll on me...

Well, that and my family...I don't know why I am the way I am, but I'm the "quiet one" in the family. The "Fed Ex" in the gang. And its really, really frustrating when my freaking sister and brothers always talk over me, always interrupt one of my stories, for something they just HAPPENED TO REMEMBER RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY FLIPPING STORY. and I know I'm no genuis story teller...and usually they are rather pointless, BUT YOU DONT NEED TO POINT IT OUT EVERY FREAKIN TIME I GET OFF TOPIC! thanks! but I dont really want your stupid side comments about my story telling ablities.

AND DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT BRINGING UP FREAKIN DJ. D:< ughhhhhhhh.

sometimes. I just want to curl up and cry...and sometimes, thats what ends up happening...orrr, I end up breaking down THREE days in a row, and I'm just stupid.
I hate myself.

I hate the way I think.
I hate the way I act.
I hate the way I can't do any thing right.
I hate the way nobody cares.
I hate the way I can barely do anything to even please myself.
I hate the way I can't even believe anyone when they tell me otherwise.
I. hate. this. all.
You think I should just quit...? I don't even know how to handle this...and its not like your going to respond to me anyways... :(
soo
How About Life; As A Depressed, Boy Troubled Girl...?
who really knows...?
we had this band competition yesterday, and percussion didnt even place. we got like 4th outta 6th..? ugh. AND WE WORK SO FLIPPIN' HARD. its not even funny.

and boys. how they make life just THAT much moooore complex.
I donno. I like Seth H...still...kinda...?
And because I havent been able to talk to T.J. until very recently, its just making things...not easy.  like all the drummers are there...and cuz Seth is apart of the line, I donno. I guess I get close to him during marching season, and then I'm supposed to have like this "kinda your boyfriend...but not really, cuz we're not old enough, and it'd be hard on us anyways..." And its just...blah. I really like them both. can that be the end of the story...? the part where you say..."kaay bye." and the story just ENDS.
but WHO KNOWS. maybe neither of them will like me...OHWELL, ITS NOT LIKE THEY PROBABLY CARED ANYWAYS...ughhh. I really gotta stop with that huh..? poop.

hmm. okeydokey pokey. ao, theres this thing going on in my chest, and I thought it was asthma, and something having to do with stress...but its not. I have to go to a cardologist about it... :P and it kidna scares me sometimes...cuz like at Foothill-the band competition on Saturday-it was really, really hurting...and ughh. I thought I was going to die. It only hurt that badly one other time before pe, I was starting to get dressed, and then...BAM. hello! good after noon! and I started crying it hurt so badly. it SUCKED.  It really SUCKED. -.-'

I kinda didn't mean for this post to turn out so...negative...but it just did. :( sorry guys.


so ya. Theres my depressed/boy trouble post.
G'Night Everyone.
Sweet Dreams.
<3, Coco.

...Driving, Vocal Point, and Sleeping...

i can get my drivers permit in less than 6 days now. :D WOOT WOOT!!
 you think ill restore a car...? i hope i can start some kind of project like that this next summer...but i donno. I'd need my dad's help, but he's got work... :P


hmm.
you know those singing shows...? well, theres an LDS male group on there. and they are totally awesome! :DD ive listen to them sooooo much today after i found out about them.  arent they just SO AWESOME LOOKING...???!!?!?! i know. SUPER COOl. :3
(they are an a capella group. EVEN BETTER.)


i think i need some sleep. but thats okaaay.
NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHTT. :P zzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzZZZZZzzzz

hm. lost my train of thought...stuuupiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidd...


...um. TJ Yostach kinda started talking to me...and his birtdhay is coming up, so guess who'll be thinking up things like crazy for the next month to get/make him something...?!? mreaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. i want to go visit him in Nov. (his birthday month)...but i highly doubt its gonna happen.........

oh, i think i might have insomnia...heh. who knows.

i need to get to sleep.
good night my dear.
heres the song i was listening to from Vocal Point. ;) i <3 them.
   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y14gNc6q0FA

...As A Teenage Girl...

How does everyone survive...? I mean fo realz.

HORMONES. (the swimmers would get that...or atleast my GVCBuddy would...)...and all that good stuff..? I just donno...

You know, being a girl-not a grill that I almost typed in...but really I think its rather hard to be a teenage girl.


Okeydokey pokey. So this is whats up...
I met this boy at this youth group thing down in SoCal, and he lives down there, and its hard to think of only him...when there are boys everywhere...YOUKNOW...?!? D:< ugh.
Like, I used to like this one kid, but I feel like hes my best guy friend up here...and then theres this other kid who liked me toward the end of last year...and then over the summer I met...kaay wait. I'll give them all names.
The one kid I used to like, whos like my best guy friend up here...his name will be...Seth Hipsterson. 
The kid that liked me toward the end of freshmen year...his name iss....Daniel Duffy. [real name: Daniel. Goes by Dan/Danny (Dan, Dan the Duffy man. Jackie would get that in a heartbeat!)] 
And the kid that I met in the youth group thing down in SoCal over the summer...his name is...T.J. YoStache.

So, I feel like I'm best friends with Seth now, Danny and I are okaay...(things got kinda awkard before summer...), and I havent actually talked to T.J. in what feels like forever! And now I just feel weird about them all... D: gaaaaaaah! I.HATE.THIS.

I know that no body really cares...buuut I just feel like I needed to get that off my chest.

But heres something else, I feel like I still like Seth...AND Danny. ugh. (and T.J. of course...)
I mean, I LOVE T.J. TO DEATH, but its just SO HARD to like someone when they live 6-7 hours away from you. I'm not even supposed to technically to be in any kind of relationships til later in life, but I feel like I reeeally like them...but for different reasons each...

Youknow...?
*sigh... :(

I guess I just hope I can sort all of this out soon.

...As A First Time Blogger.

My name is Colleen, but you can call me Coco. Or whatever you like, thats fine too. Well, I am a total newb at this. (noob/newb. Whatever. Its all the same to me) anyways...i should probably say somethings about myself...
ILOVEMUSIC. It is literally my life.
My favorite sport is Marching Band, and then swim.
I have a stuffed animal bear, which i call Mrs Bear, and a stuffed animal dog, which i call Scruffy. :3My room is usually a mess. Its very rare that my sister or I can see the floor completely.
I love fashion. I use to want to be a fashion designer...but dreams change...and now I just don't know.
I want to be in a band, like a rock band. And be totally boss.
I love to sing.
I love to play my ukulele, and I'm not half bad, might I add.
Fake mustaches are interesting. And fun. :)
I want to restore a car of my own, so I can say I accomplished that. (A buck list thing...maybe...?) And one of my best friends say that I would never do something like that. I love her, but I really would like to do that someday.My best friend lives 6-7hours away from me. And I wished we lived closer.
I feel like Sophomore  year is...going to...be...poopy... :P
I like to read.
Born and raised a member of the LDS church. (Mormon)
Favorite color: red, purple, and black.
I LOVE TO PLAY BASS DRUM. Being in the Terra Nova Marching Band is awesome, and its a great experience. :]
I should probably start carrying a dictionary around with me.
On that note(^), I am TERRIBLE with words. Seriously. No joke. I hate grammar, and spelling. Never liked Spelling bee's or spelling games, because I just can not spell.
I love to draw. I think I am a decent artist, but everyone has their opinion.
I have a rather low self esteem. Not all the time, but it comes and goes. Its kind of an odd thing for me to deal with. :P
I love poetry. Its one way I can express myself, and be rather subtle about it. uno...?
I like to write songs, but I'm not always very good at it. I've wrote a couple already, and maybe ill put a video or two up...that is, once I can figure that out...Anywho...
I wish I could play the piano, even though its like the number one most played instrument.... D:<
I play the flute, and I'm not too shabby.
I don't think of myself as pretty. I'm content with myself most of the time.
I seriously hate the color orange, and i only know of like 3 people that have to opposite opinion.My favorite animal would have to be either a hamster, or a giraffe. :)
I don't exactly have a favorite subject in school. They've all been ruined because of my grades. I USED to like math, and science...but whatever, you know its cool. NAAAAAAAAAAT.I have NO IDEA what I'm going to be when I grow up. I wanted to be a model, then a underwater photographer, and then a fashion designer...but those dreams just are too unrealistic...
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. Good times.
Okeydokey pokey. I will see you later, and tell you something more interesting...
Good Night.
 <3, Colleen.